I know it is there, in the pantry behind the Cuisinart and the fancy serving dishes you haven’t used in 6 years and 17 months. It is collecting dust. Maybe it is filed in the drawers with magazine clippings and tax returns from 9 years ago. Perhaps, shoved way to the back of the spare bedroom closet with a formal dress you swore you would wear again some day.
It is the whisper in your heart. It is your sacred calling. It is your purpose.
Has it been nudging you lately, “Sweetheart- – -there is more for you – it is time.” OH Shit– and then you slam the door and find some obligatory chore to busy your mind, or get lost in the abyss of facebook or twitter.
We keep it tucked safely in the closet- hoarded away for some supposed future use. Hidden, suffocating. . . and LONGING to be called forth.
I know all too well, the tell signs of keeping it in the closet- behind the doors of our heart. Away from the light of life. Slight depression, vague emptiness, and always to busy, to tired, consumed by that more important bull shit project first, my kids, my husband, not enough money, blah blah blah blah.
Inner Critic and the Itty-Bitty Shitty Doubting Committee stand guard- if you come close they will unload their shame and humiliation on you– all while SCREAMING, “You’d be considered a full fledged kook, irresponsible, and a nut job. He’ll leave you. You’ll go broke. Who are you kidding…It is impossible.”
And yet, from behind their screams….she still whispers, “Your PURPOSE, Love. . .when may we play in your PURPOSE?”
And so today, what if we just exchanged the closet doors for curtains? The door-something hard and cold and thick, in exchange for something soft and malleable–curtains. What if you gave your self the tiny gift of just peeking at the essence behind the curtain. No need to fling the door wide open…just peek in and listen:
- What do you hear?
- What do you feel?
If you hear Inner Critic, and I can almost guarantee you will, tell him to bugger off and take his pals, Fear and Shame, with him.
Catch your breath and peek again? Her voice is loving and sure.
- How does she comfort you?
- What does she say about your dreams?
- What if. . . WHAT IF?
Maybe take some time and a journal…something sacred and write these whispers down. And congratulate yourself, for tapping back in. Even if for a moment. And know this:
Inner Whisper, your Sacred Calling, and your Purpose are all there there, waiting to know you more– to discuss with you, to ponder and play– and to eventually come bravely out of the closet and light up your life.
WARNING: Spiritual and Quantum Law: What you focus on grows, to the exclusion of everything else. When you begin to give your Inner Whisper, your Sacred Calling, and your Purpose attention…they will GROW. . . and that is exactly what I hope will happen for both of us.
I’d love to hear some of what your Inner Whisper says…sharing it with someone also helps it grow!