I write and talk like Forrest Gump runs, runs, and runs.
I run my mouth out loud, sometimes in straight lines and often in zig-zags and circles. Often, I run my mouth or words out loud.
Maybe for the same reason, some people climb mountains; I use my words because they are there.
Last night, If I could have written all the thoughts and ideas, headings, and questions, running through my mind, I would, perhaps, have had a 2nd book. I did not let them out because I wanted to sleep.
Yes, You are right! I need validation. And when I speak or write outside of my head, I exist freely, and I give the validation I desire to myself.
Often, mid coaching or teaching, I say the silent part out loud, “That was GOOD, Allison, write that down!” or “Dang, I’m good at this.” Newer clients’ eyes get big. Who does that, who pats their own back, out loud, while working?
I do. It’s never contrived, it’s always pure and in the moment, and it feels go
od. Try it; you might like it.
Sometimes, when I’m getting ready in the morning, I look into my magnifying mirror, and I can see the green flecks in my eyes; as I apply my mascara, I feel beautiful, and I will say out loud, “My Gawd, your eyes are gorgeous, you are so cute.” Sometimes Bill is there to hear it, often he is not. It isn’t for him. It’s for me.
Sometimes, I write and in the privacy of my journals or notes app on my phone. And often, I write or speak on forums for the public to see. Both validate me.
All the answers to every question I have, are in the stories I tell out loud. The answers don’t come if I don’t write or talk it out. The answers you might be looking for are in the stories you aren’t telling.
When they asked Forrest Gump why he was running, he said, “I felt like running.”
And maybe someday, like Forrest, I will just stop; I will be done.
But for now, I feel like running.
