Tone: peaceful
Bianca Forte is the choice today. Carmel Cookie is my go-to.
For the last few months, Iโve been waking up with slightly anxious parts going through all the things pressing on me. Anxiety in the early morning is new for me. Weeks ago, I was judging these parts and irritated that they couldnโt wait until regular waking hours to bother me.
Today I just see them. And I spend time with them. โHello, Anxiety and Racing Concerns. I am here for you. Letโs visit.โ
I am willing to rise before my dogs even, and just connect with all the thoughts and words in my head.
Sometimes my anxiety parts and I stay in my head- but many days we write. Writing helps. Today we write.
Does anyone tell the world when they lose clients? Or just when they get them 
. I have a membership that has no long-term contracts. People come. People go. 4 went this month. I wish them the best and trust the decision. Itโs a big swing math wise, but I always absorb the loss. I’m strangely peaceful about even this. The right people come and go at the right times.
. I have a membership that has no long-term contracts. People come. People go. 4 went this month. I wish them the best and trust the decision. Itโs a big swing math wise, but I always absorb the loss. I’m strangely peaceful about even this. The right people come and go at the right times.Once, seven people left in one week. It was a gut punch. 
wanna learn not to take things personally and truly trust yourself and your clients – build a membership with autonomous doors.
wanna learn not to take things personally and truly trust yourself and your clients – build a membership with autonomous doors.
Iโm making my own shifts in life and work – and for a few people – I am the client completing.
I have parts that long for some of the joys of the past when there were community events every quarter in LA. I miss being in the room with my peers as a peer. I have a community I lead – and I miss being a peer in those rooms. My closest companions are from that season.
There is no going back. There is no going back to 85 members. There is no going back to the โgood ol daysโ – there IS the now. The warm coffee and cream in my 2crows cup.
The light of my undecorated Christmas tree. There is only me and my anxious parts together at this moment.
There are the 45 clients I have who are also waking up across the world. Many of whom, I know what they wake up anxious about. Some are sharers and connectors and shower-upers and others, more private, have me on retainer for moments when they want to check-in.
People. Not just clients. Friends. Some of my significant friendships shifted this year. So many people in and out of our lives. Deep moments and energized connections become sweet memories and best wishes.
I see past clients in my feed. Iโve seen five clients over the years pass away. This month 2 of my past clients lost their beloved children way too soon. 
we are all doing this thing called life. Itโs not just about the math and numbers of our businesses.
we are all doing this thing called life. Itโs not just about the math and numbers of our businesses.Social media tends to keep our histories in our feeds. Memories of many different seasons pop up when least expected. Thoughts can spread into the past and into the future.
No need to avoid either- dance into the past. Race into the future. Do it with mindfulness, Allison. And then come back to the moment that is NOW. Letโs see what unfolds in the day. I have new paints to play with.
Itโs going to be a joyful day.
Love, Allison
