Ok. #RealLifePost. There are lots of days when I think I want to quit. I’ve been working since I was 15 and self employed since 2003. I’m a recovering overachiever and last fall I was diagnosed w/ hypothyroidism and adrenal fatigue. Maybe that was part of the birth of this Share Your Heart Show Your Work movement. There had to be a way of working as a self employed person that filled both my life and my bank account. My emotional P&L became more important than my $$$ P&L (but as the primary funder of our life {bill would sweetly live in a shoe box but I don’t wanna} I put a lot of pressure on myself and still have to create income).
There is both a freedom when working for ourselves…. And a pressure. In real estate we used to always say- you can’t take the freedom until you’ve earned the right.
And I just can’t accept that. It screams of scarcity and striving for me. And I find my brain still sneaking up on me and believing it from time to time.
It isn’t true. We can manage energy and not time. We can take care of ourselves.
During difficult times, poor health, death of loved ones, biz failures, and when I’m just plain exhausted and tired- I have thought of quitting.
And then. I remember I can’t make any decisions from a depleted place. And so I give my self tender permission to rest.
Sometimes a simple nap, or a few days off, or just permission to not try so fuxking hard…. (That is how my iPhone spells that work now?!). And I rest.
And every time I REST. I stop wanting to give up. I become new again and my heart feels the goodness that is this entrepreneurial life! Love to you all. If you need it, #permissiontorest.
Photo swiped from IG.
💛AC
